Stop Trying and Start Being

I get several e-mails each day from a couple of lists I belong too. The following couple of paragraphs were part of a message from Kathie Walters that was sent through in an Elijah List e-mail. The whole message was really solid, but I focused rather hard on two paragraphs. They are as follows:

"If you are doing something tonight in the way of serving God and it's not delightful, forget it --it's just works. And, sorry to say, God is not interested in your works, He's interested in His works. He is not going to anoint your works, He anoints His works. The glory of God will never come on what you do --the glory comes on what He does. It's not trying, it's yielding to the anointing.
Isn't it easier to yield rather than to try and strive and work at it? Trying can be very trying. God is not running around your city trying to recruit workers for the Kingdom, He is just wanting His sons and daughters to rise up and be who He called them to be. You're not a sinner saved by grace -- you were a sinner saved by grace, but now you are a son or a daughter of Almighty God. You are royalty of the Royalty, an heir of righteousness and an heir of the Kingdom. You don't have to earn it, you can't qualify for it -- Jesus gave you this inheritance, freely. He paid for it 100% when He died and rose again."

I was powerfully reminded by these two paragraphs who I am to God. I am His daughter. He freely gives, whether I deserve it or not. I don't have to try to be anything, I just have to yield to God's anointing on my life and be who I already am. It's not about what I do, it is about what He did and is doing.

For what it's worth, that is what I wanted to share today.

More Learning

It never stops. Learning is a life long event, which I suppose is good because the minute you stop learning, you start dying. But sometimes the events which lead to the learning are not fun. Such was the case this past weekend.

I'm not going to comment here on exactly what happened, as that is between me and God, but I got an up close and personal lesson on how satan can strategically sabotage your walk with God by bringing things into your life that hit you where you struggle the most. I didn't completely walk back to the life I was living, but I was close.

So, now I'm having to deal with some of the backlash of the events of this past weekend. I'm bringing some selected individuals who stand strong with God along side of me to walk through this issue, and I know from experience, that no matter how bad the walk to recovery may be, I will be stronger on the other side because of it.

My daddy God is bigger then anything the world wants to throw at me and big brother Jesus is ready and able to put the smack down on anything that would prevent me from coming close to Him.

Who I Am

I am a child of the King. I am a princess in the kingdom of God. I am blessed beyond measure because my Daddy provides everything I need. I am assured of my salvation. I am learning to be an eagle for God.

Leif Hetland is currently conducting a "Soaring as Eagles" conference at Heartland Assembly in Ankeny, IA. He talked a lot last night about knowing who we are and whose we are. We are God's. He bought us with a price, that price being his Son. Jesus gave His life for me and the question is posed once again, what will I do with my life for Jesus today.

God is doing a deep work in me. Plans that I had abandoned due to past issues in my life, God is stirring those things in me again. I don't know much, but I know that God knows and that is all that matters.

I had an opportunity to talk to my friend Jenni last night about some things that God was teaching me. Jenni and I share a similar past but God has shown us the same grace. I know that although our overall ministries may be different, we will minister together on occasion. I was telling Jenni about an e-mail i sent to one of my friends, someone that I knew from my past. In part, I told my friend that life and love are found in a relationship with Jesus and until that is established everything else fails to be true. I see the rest of my life in the eyes of Jesus. My friend didn't respond too great to this e-mail but the message was put out there, she has now heard it and I'll continue to pray that the seed that has been planted will be watered and given light so it can grow. We talked on the phone for over 2 hours and as the call was nearing an end, I had a Sheryl Crow song come to mind. I don't normally listen to Sheryl Crow, or much secular music at all for that matter, but basically the chorus to the song goes "I'm gonna soak up the sun, I'm gonna tell everyone to lighten up." But I said that I was going to soak the up the Son, as in Jesus, and am going to tell everyone that true freedom comes in knowing and being known by Him.

We are His. Bought with a price. Destined for greatness. Empowered by the Spirit.

Anticipation

God is moving. I can feel it. We had a prayer meeting at Heartland Assembly in Ankeny, IA last night. We are preparing for a conference there that is starting tomorrow. Leif Hetland will be the speaker. He is coming up from Florida where some exciting things have been happening. Healings, supernatural signs and wonders.... the reports are amazing.
I am ready to see God move as I've never seen before. The anticipation is high. God is faithful to those who apprehend Him.

Learning

It's been awhile since I've posted things here. That means I've either been learning a lot and have little time to write, or I have been learning nothing at all. Well, I've been learning a lot. In time, I will share more, but these are just the highlights:

1) Grace - Sometimes I get what I don't deserve, because Jesus died on the cross for what I did deserve

2) Unconditional love - Jesus drew people in with love, let that love and His power change them and then said go and sin no more. Too many people what you in your Sunday best before they will love you. They remember the preach the truth part, but leave out the in love part.

3) Forgiveness - I can let people off the hook, knowing that God will deal with them. Just because I forgive, it doesn't mean I have to forget, but I don't need to hang on to things that Jesus is better at dealing with than I am.

4) I am a princess - My Father is the King, that makes me a princess. For more insight into this, please read "The Supernatural Ways of Royalty" by Kris Valloton and Bill Johnson.

Anyways, God is awesome. Big things are happening. Keep your eyes open and you will see God move everyday.

Welcome

Welcome to Apprehend. It is my sincere desire to share with all those who find this particular blog my life and how Jesus has made an impact in it. My life has not been perfect. I have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, we all have. However, Jesus has turned my life upside down. I have been arrested for the cause of Christ. He apprehended me all the way to the cross. In my life, I desire for others to know this HUGE LOVE that would lead Jesus to die, for me and you. I also desire to dig deeper, to apprehend all that God is for me in Christ Jesus. In my life, my only goal is to know Jesus and to make Him known.
I'm not saying that I will share any profound mysteries here. I just want to share what was wrong in my life and how Jesus made it right. He can make things right for you too. I'm learning a lot these days, and if someone else can learn from my experiences as well, this blog will have been well worth it. The verse for the day is something I'm trying to put into practice in my life:

John 3:30 - "He must increase and I must decrease."

To God be the glory,